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Tracee Ellis Ross – can we be friends?

I listened this morning to the James Corden podcast, This Life of Mine, for the first time and I decided to start with his episode featuring Tracee Ellis Ross. Tracee Ellis Ross, for me, is just, luminescent. She is 51 and part of the episode focused on what it is like to be at this time of life, which I can relate to.

But more importantly for me, the reason Tracee stands out is because she has been in my background consciousness throughout my adulthood. When I was growing up in Canada, there were no English movies or television shows, featuring South Asian stories or actors. And for me, the bond I saw between Black characters or Latinas, was closer to what I saw in my family dynamic, with my West Indian family and my South Asian friends. And so Girlfriends became a staple for me.

I loved the dynamic between the 4 girlfriends, living the LA lifestyle. Tracee’s character played a lawyer named Joan and I was just entering the legal profession, so her character is the one that I resonated with. I loved her style on the show and her confidence in work, but her lack of confidence in her personal life, which again, I related to. Girlfriends gave me 30 minutes of wishing I was a part of that dynamic and gave me an outlet to see someone not white, dealing with some of the issues, I was encountering in law (not being seen as one of the club, fighting for recognition etc…)

Fast forward to Black-ish, which was a staple for my husband and I. We loved watching the family dynamic of 2 working professionals, juggling family, career and parents. Again, the playful dynamic between Tracee’s character Bow, and her husband Dre, resonated, because my husband and I will often try to tackle the day to day with laughter and fun, in the same way. However, we also do not shy away from having challenging discussions about world events and issues we are all encountering.

And so as I was listening to Tracee discuss her favourite show, “The Gilded Age” (mine too), I loved her response about her love for fashion. She described her fashion as being an artistic and creative outlet for her to express herself, and that struck a chord, because that is how I feel about fashion. It allows me to express myself artistically, on a daily basis, to personify, how I am feeling, reflecting the weather or providing me the armour to tackle the day’s events, of course always with style.

When I started off in law, I went and bought 3 expensive suits – one in black, dark grey and navy blue. Because we were in Court almost on a daily basis, those were my staples. And also, I wanted to be taken seriously and blend in. I did not want to draw any attention to myself in any way, other than for good work, because I was already different being a racialized woman with a nose ring.

However, throughout my tenure, and watching some really fun female lawyers both on television and in real life, show me that I can still be taken seriously, without sacrificing my style, I dived right in! And it truly brings joy to my day – accessorizing, and putting together a look. And I have totally accepted that if I am still going to stand out in any event, because I am a racialized female lawyer, I might as well give everyone something to look at. I was recently honoured with a legal award, which was very meaningful for me, and my look of choice was a bright pink brocade suit with an Asian print. I wanted to be true to myself and I wanted to feel comfortable being me. The suit was a hit and I hope that it also prompted others to make bold fashion choices.

But that’s just one Diva’s view!

@ThisLifeofMine @TraceeEllisRoss @fashion @Girlfriends @Black-ish

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Posh Spice and 50th

So Posh has been a constant in my life. I remember the first time I heard the Spice Girls sing Wannabe and thought – this is a hit! In a talent show, doing a Spice Girl parody, you guessed it – I played Posh. I mean we have so much in common LOL. But seriously – from one Taurus to another and born in the same year, I started looking to Posh Spice for shared milestone birthday celebrations and life journeys.

My husband and I recently watched the David Beckham documentary on Netflix and we really enjoyed and were inspired by his story and his life’s approach. And you can see that he and Posh have a great connection. They tease, support and love each other and even through the ups and downs, they have remained dedicated to their relationship and their family. And the follow up with the Uber delivery/eats Super Bowl commercial, carried through the teasing from the documentary, which was great. Looking forward to her documentary!

And so as Posh marks her 50th birthday, I have to say, that what has always resonated about her with me, is that she seems very comfortable with who she is, and her goals and aspirations. She has had a lot of people speak about her – both positive and negative and she seems to take it in stride, which is something I am working on. She is also extremely disciplined in terms of her health and she looks fabulous. She would definitely be someone I would love to meet at a dinner party and hear her anecdotes. She has lived her life and she definitely owns it all, yet maintains a serene joy, which I admire.

And ofcourse – her style. Although different from mine, she knows what works for her and is committed to that. I like that confidence.

And I love that she has fully leaned into her 50th birthday celebration. With my milestone fast approaching, I have felt hesitant about how to personally celebrate it. Both of my parents are deceased and that plays a part. On my drive today, I realized that I did not have those ancestors to direct me on my journey as I age. I cannot look at them, for markers nor do I have their support or foundation. Especially from my Mom. She was strict with me – there is no doubt. But she really was my greatest cheerleader. She was present in my life at all times, even when she became sick, and I valued her presence and influence. As indicated before, whenever I have a special moment in my life, I ensure that I wear a piece of jewellery or accessory from my Mom, so that I feel her presence with me. On these types of moments, there is a feeling of being bereft without this presence. And it definitely plays a part in how I will be feeling. She taught me to laugh loudly, wear bright colours proudly, celebrate sarcasm and teasing and to never shy away from standing tall and being bold; lessons I continue to carry with me.

I have a lot to be thankful for and I will ensure, that will be the focus on this next chapter on the horizon.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

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Fashion Inspiration from the Big Screen- part 1

I have always been captivated by the fashion on the big screen. The costume designers put together clothes, which continue the story line being portrayed and have been fabulous in creating memorable moments and images. If only I had the talent….sigh!

Image 1 – Rita Moreno – West Side Story

My favourite all time look, when I was younger, and was shared by Mom, was Rita Moreno, in her lilac dress dancing to America in West Side Story. That dress was perfect for Rita and for the dance. It was fluid, with simple lines, and I adored the colour. Even now, whenever I see this scene, I think of my Mom.

My Mom was a seamstress and designer. She never used a pattern, but was able to sew beautiful clothes. Especially when I was younger, it was challenging to find clothes that properly fit me, but with my Mom, I had custom made dresses, tops, shorts, skirts, school bags – you name it! Had she been alive and able, she would have definitely made clothes for my kids.

Image 2 – Audrey Hepburn – My Fair Lady

If I had had a Western wedding, I would have had this dress re-created to wear. The dress in question is worn by Audrey Hepburn’s character on her debut at her first ball. The Empire Waist, the beading, her jewellery – all exquisite. Every time she makes her first appearance, I am in awe. And to top it off, the perfect up do. It is just elegance refined.

Image 3 – Anne Hathaway – The Devil Wears Prada

So many iconic looks, but my favourite is Andy’s outfit when she is told by Miranda Priestly, that she is going to Paris with her for Fashion Week; a crisp white shirt, black short sleeves sweater, Chanel necklace and tweed hat – that is my fashion love letter. I am actually wearing a play on this today, only my sweater is Pink for International Day of Pink and alas, no hat! But I love a great hat to finish off my outfits!

Image 4 – Faye Dunaway – The Thomas Crown Affair

Faye’s character exudes style, grace and confidence in every look. A mix of blazers, mini skirts and turtlenecks, with delightfully stylish hats – Chef’s kiss! When she attends to play Chess at Steve McQueen’s house, she is wearing a gorgeous lilac coat, which she then removes to reveal a chiffon layered dress that is coquettish and pretty at the same time. Perfection.

This has been so much fun and I am looking forward to sharing more looks! For me fashion is a part of representing who I am and providing me with the confidence to be my best self. I am constantly getting ideas from other people and now being older, I know what works for my body and style, which is great.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#moviefashion #iconiclooks

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Kelly Clarkson – thank you!

So one of the best parts of my day, is my drive to and from work. To place it in context, for many years (more than 20 years), my commute consisted of public transportation, which can be limiting. Trains, subways, buses, streetcars – you name it, I have taken it. The positive about public transportation was my ability to read each day, which allowed me to explore so many books and genres and I miss that! My degree of reading has lessened drastically. PSA – Reading transformed my life and I cannot imagine a world without books! #READ!!

However, when I got my car, it included satellite radio and I decided to maintain the subscription. A few months afterwards, Kelly Clarkson introduced a new station on satellite radio and I have to say, that has been a game changer for me. She shares the same eclectic taste in music that I do, which has been amazing.

Most people don’t like my musical playlists, because I like so many genres of music and I like to listen to all of the various genres, without rhyme and reason. And surprise, surprise – so does Kelly Clarkson. She goes from pop, to country, to jazz standards, to R&B and alternative music and it has been fantastic.

Many times, when she is playing a song by an artist, she provides a commentary on why she likes the music and her memories associated with the songs, and I love that experience. Music really allows you to be transported back in time, to a certain memory or feeling, which is powerful. And I love that she highlights lesser known artists, and has expanded my musical likes.

I have always like Kelly’s vibe and have been a fan from the onset. My brother and I watched the inaugural season of American Idol and were so happy when Kelly won. I have always loved her music and her contributions to various soundtracks.

When she returned to American Idol years later, pregnant, singing, Piece by Piece, I cried more than Keith Urban. The rendition was truly poignant and powerful, and still today, when I watch her, I tear up. If you have not watched it – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmMzv9Fen_s, please do so.

Throughout her career, what has stood out has been her realness, her joy, her talent and her ability to connect through her music. Now discovering that we have many similar musical influences and likes, has strengthened my appreciation of her.

And honestly, isn’t it great to find a connection with someone?

And so, if you happen to pass by me on my commute, you will likely see me singing along to my favourite music, care of Kelly Clarkson!

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#KellyClarksonConnection

Influences, Memories

George Michael

Like many women of my era, I was first introduced to George Michael through WHAM. Initially, they really were not my cup of tea. I was not into bands which had a huge female following, who just fanned out for the group, wearing their swag and just going into hysterics. In the same way, I was never a huge New Kids on the Block fan either. 

But then my Dad really loved Careless Whisper and played it a lot at home. And my Dad was a huge musical influence for me growing up. And from that song, I was hooked. I became a FAN!! In grade 5, I asked for Wham’s Make it Big album for my birthday present. I listened to that album non stop and knew all the words. I still have it and it is at the front of my album collection. 

And in grade 7, when George Michael released his solo debut, I had that cassette. And even though it had some controversial lyrics, no one was stopping me from grooving to that cassette! My fandom continued! And quite honestly, George Michael’s music has been with me throughout. High School was Listen without Prejudice, which contains my favourite song, George Michael’s interpretation of Stevie Wonder’s “They Won’t Go When I go”. During university, he released “Older” and it was the perfect music to play at night, just looking out the window, wondering who I was going to be when I was Older. 

When I was in Law School, he released Unplugged, which has my favourite version of “Everything She Wants”, recorded in Japan. And then he released Songs from the Last Century, where he came out as being gay in a small lyric of a song referring to his lover as “he”. I remember my roommate’s boyfriend teasing me that my musical boyfriend was gay and that this would ruin my adoration for him; that guy did not know anything! I was glad that George was comfortable being himself and sharing himself with his audience. I felt like he trusted his fans to be himself and sing about his true life. It was insightful. 

His voice and his interpretation of songs, has just always been magical and hypnotizing to me. And when he did covers, he always re-did my favourite songs such as Stevie Wonder’s “As” or Roberta Flack’s “The First Time” or Bonnie Rait’s “I can’t make you love me”…..I could go on. 

I loved his videos, his cheeky take on controversies and his general attitude. His confidence and soulful voice have been a companion and a part of my soundtrack of my life. Honestly, I can reference so many amazing moments, and his voice was always present or in the background of those memories – that’s how important he has been to me. 

I was lucky enough to see him in concert with my husband and for me, it was hands down, one of the best musical experiences in my life. He transported me that night with his music and I am grateful that I finally had that experience.

When he passed away, my close friend shared the news, knowing how important he was to me. It was at that moment that I understood the fans of the Beatles or Elvis, being devastated. 

It was upsetting because you knew, he had more to share, and that although his music would live on, he was no longer. 

Whenever a George Michael song comes on the radio, it does not get changed. I hope that one day, my kids can discover his music and appreciate it, even in a little way. I think that they will have a better understanding of me, by doing so.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#GeorgeMichael #MusicalInfluences

Memories

John Denver

I know – not a subject that anyone would expect me to write about. However, John Denver has been a constant in my life - a reassuring constant.

My parents watched a lot of variety shows while I was growing up. Although I was too young, I know that my parents watched the John Denver show during my infancy, and his soothing voice must have made an impact, because I have always loved his voice.

For kids my age, our version of a variety show was the “Muppet Show”. John Denver is one of the guests that I remember fondly from that show. He had a very unassuming way, but very likeable. He looked like the type of person that if you needed help, he would assist. For a kid – that makes an impact.

And when he sang, the songs were always memorable and pure. They left a memory for you. As I have a milestone birthday coming up, I have been doing a lot of reflecting on my influences. 

As you know, music has always been a huge influence for me. My birth year, John Denver released one of my favourites which he co-wrote – Sunshine on my Shoulders https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=diwuu_r6GJE:

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a day that I could give you
I’d give to you a day just like today
If I had a song that I could sing for you
I’d sing a song to make you feel this way

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high

If I had a tale that I could tell you
I’d tell a tale sure to make you smile
If I had a wish that I could wish for you
I’d make a wish for sunshine all the while

Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
Sunshine in my eyes can make me cry
Sunshine on the water looks so lovely
Sunshine almost always makes me high
Sunshine almost all the time makes me high
Sunshine almost always

What amazing lyrics and such a pleasing melody. It is the perfect song for me because honestly, I am a person very impacted by the sun and sunshine. It perfectly encapsulates my feelings about the sun and how our family has always had amazing memories during the summer or somewhere hot! The sun always makes me feel happy and at my best. 

And ofcourse, in school, we learned Country Roads, which to me is almost like an anthem. It is honestly one of my favourite songs to sing and it is surprisingly, how many people know all of the lyrics to this song. Again, written by John Denver, for me, it reminds me of my Mom. She grew up in the country side, although not in the USA and the feeling of this song, seems to capture “country living” which I always associate with my Mom.

When John Denver passed away, I was in Law School and my roommates and I were throwing a birthday party for a friend at our place. Many friends showed up with other friends, and no joke – this guy showed up and he looked exactly like John Denver. It was a bit eerie, but all throughout the evening, we kept coming up to him, asking him to sing our favourite John Denver songs. For all of us that evening, we always remember it is as our John Denver party. 

And so for me, John Denver has been a constant in my life. And as I reflect, I am so happy that I have been influenced by such an amazing story teller, both in lyrics and in song.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#JohnDenver #milestone

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Moments that touch you

I always thought about pursuing a career in the arts – specifically drama and singing. I was strongly interested in both. But my biggest issue was not being confident in my abilities and therefore, holding myself back when performing. This was in part, because the criticism was quite crushing to me. That issue of holding myself back, translated into me not properly providing the emotion necessary for the song. Because although I may have been technically perfect, the art of performance really comes down to connecting with your audience. Making them feel the emotions that you are performing. 

Again – it is not a science, but an art. 

But being the recipient of touching performances has definitely been something that has stirred me throughout my life. My dad used to automatically know what would cause me to cry and would teasingly say to me, let me see your face, knowing that it would be tear soaked.

And as anything, those moments where you are so caught up in the emotion, are truly moving and memorable moments. 

I had one such moment last night. I was watching the final 9 performances of The Voice, and there was one performance that really touched me. Lila Forde, provided her rendition of Canadian great Joni Mitchell’s The River. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QkEmtjw02o8 

I have always admired Joni’s work, but this was the first time that this song really struck a chord with me. And that is the beauty of the arts, isn’t it? Sometimes, your life experiences or where you are in a particular moment of time, causes you to have a different reaction to a song, than in previous instances. This was one of those moments. I have heard the song many times before, but this particular performance really touched me, to the point where I am a bit embarrassed, that I had a little sobbing session. I don’t know what triggered that reaction, but it was like I was hearing the words of the song for the first time and for the first time, I understood and related to the lyrics:

It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace
Oh, I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don’t snow here
It stays pretty green
I’m going to make a lot of money
Then I’m going to quit this crazy scene
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh, I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby cry

He tried hard to help me
You know, he put me at ease
And he loved me so naughty
Made me weak in the knees
Oh, I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I’m so hard to handle
I’m selfish and I’m sad
Now I’ve gone and lost the best baby
That I ever had
Oh, I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh, I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I made my baby say goodbye

It’s coming on Christmas
They’re cutting down trees
They’re putting up reindeer
Singing songs of joy and peace
I wish I had a river
I could skate away on

https://lyrics.lyricfind.com/en-GB/lyrics/joni-mitchell-river

Part of it has been that this is the first year where I am having a hard time connecting to the Christmas spirit. In part, the state of the world. In part, how busy things have been. In part…..everything? 

And for the first time after hearing that song, I wished “I had a river I could skate away on” just to find some peace. And so for me, this song and specifically this performance, really resonated with me. And it seemed to for others, because John Legend, Lila’s coach, started crying when he was providing his feedback, because he was very moved as well. And that is powerful, isn’t it? That we can have that stirring of emotions from a performance and it strikes a universal chord – there is something uniting in that. 

It is probably why concert venues are at capacity – we are all looking for a shared emotional connection, especially after the pandemic and especially with everything going on in the world.

And so – I am thankful for the arts and these moments of feeling an intense emotional connection to a performance, that transcends all!

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#The River #Joni Mitchell #Lila Forde

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A new path

When I was a kid, we had a huge enclosed front yard. In the summer, it was my happy place. I usually walked bare feet in the grass. The yard had a beautiful garden surrounding it and depending on where you were in the garden, you would get the scent of roses or peonies, the smell of the sunshine kissing the ripening tomatoes, the smell of herbs, the grass – it all just was comforting. We now refer to it as nature bathing. But for me, there was an instinctive need to feel a part of nature, which nourished me. It was listening and responding to my inner instinct.

Growing up, my parents insisted that notwithstanding the temperatures outside, we had to spend time outside – either walking along the lake, or at a park, or on a bike ride. In the cold winter, we would go to Centennial Park, because the greenhouse there, would give us a reprieve from the cold before we could drink some hot tea my mom had packed in the thermos.

Today, we are very fortunate to live in an area, where we are surrounded by trails through various greenspaces. And even though we had a sudden change in the temperature this past week-end, and even though we were all tired from hosting Thanksgiving at our house, on Monday, we decided to go for a walk along a new trail 5 minutes away from our house.

My girls and I walked at a more sedate pace, keeping my husband and son in our sight. We took in the changing leaves and kicked them while we walked. We talked about what we are grateful for in our lives and we shared little updates with one another. The colours, the smells, the company – it was all blissful.

At the start of the trail, there were many paths that we could take. As we stood there, pondering our course, the perfect poem popped in my mind and stayed with me for the entire walk:

The Road Not Taken 

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44272/the-road-not-taken

BY ROBERT FROST

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

I feel as I am approaching a certain milestone age in my life, that this poem resonates more with me, than when I first read it.

It was a perfect way, to end a long week-end, full of family time and full of great memories.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#Thanksgiving #nature #newpath

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My magic sandals

Years ago, when my mom and I would go grocery shopping together every Saturday, we popped into this shoe store ( I still remember the store and what it looked like) and I found a pair of wooden open toed heeled sandals, which were an amazing deal. I had never had a pair like them. I bought them and as women know, it takes a while to determine how truly comfortable shoes will be. However, these became my magic sandals. Because they were brown leather and wooden, they practically matched any outfit. And at the time, I was not much of a “shoe person” so finding a pair of heeled sandals that I could wear with anything were truly magical!

At the time, I would take the streetcar to work, and as many public transportation riders know, many mornings start with a dash to the stop so that you do not miss your streetcar and these sandals allowed me to sprint, they were so comfortable. So as soon as the weather allowed, these became my go to footwear.

And they never got scuffed or looked worn – they remained perfect looking. And my feet never hurt wearing them. I loved them so much that years later, when we did our engagement wedding photo shoot, I wore them for the photos and am glad that I kept a photographic memory of these sandals.

But as we learn with time, perfect can break. And one time, I went to put on my sandals, and then heel was dangling off and cracked. I had worn them out. And given the damage, there was no way to fix them. And I was honestly sad. I got rid of them but never stopped missing them.

Fast forward to the era of on line shopping. I searched everywhere for a replica of those sandals because they had never left my mind. And I never found them. I came close and bought a pair on line, but when they were delivered, they were too high and very uncomfortable. The opposite of my magical sandals. And I stopped looking…..

Until a few days ago, when I came across a pair on line that were pretty close, but not the same. And when I saw a discount for them, I decided to give them a try. They arrived yesterday and as soon as I put them on, I knew, my feet knew – these were going to be a very close second.

And when I went to pick up my kids from their evening activity, my daughter asked why I was wearing heels to get them, and I honestly had no good explanation except, I wanted to experience the magic again.

And I wore them to work today and although I have not sprinted in them, I am looking forward to finishing off the summer in style, with some magic on my feet. And this experience truly taught me that when you least expect it, and are not looking for it, magic can happen again! Perhaps lightning does not strike twice, but sometimes, it comes close.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#magic #lifelessons

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My life in pink and the lessons I learned

When I was a baby and toddler, my mother dressed me predominantly in pink. My flower girl dress was pink. Any photos depicting special events usually had me in pink. So when I grew old enough to pick out my own clothes, I rebelled and refused to wear pink. My mom reluctantly stopped buying me pink and I had a pink break.

But pink honestly has always been one of my favourite colours. It is the colour of my favourite flower – peonies and I love all of the different hues. The soft pink that is almost white to the deep dark pink which is so loud and attention seeking.

At Diwali, we always decorate the house with Bright Fushsia Pink and Orange. And right now, with the resurgence of Barbie, that bright pink has become ubiquitous. I have fully embraced “Barbie Pink” and have no issue wearing it, loudly and boldly. I accidentally bought a dress on line months ago that was Barbie Pink, which at the time, I thought was a bit much. But it has become a staple piece of mine this Spring and I am glad that I kept it.

Pink is a colour that looks great on my skin tone and always makes me feel pretty. I understand now why my mom dressed me in pink a lot. Because she designed and sewed clothes, she had a great eye for colour and what worked on people. She knew.

But I also understand that sometimes, we have to come to our own realizations and not have them imposed on us. That has definitely been a character trait of mine. It might take me a little longer, and I might end up where I started, but I need to go through the journey to get there. The journey teaches us a lot about who we are.

But that’s just one Diva’s view.

#pink #Barbiepink